Uhhh…Yeah.

The last days were simple and surprisingly clear, my chemistry has brought on a rainstorm of emotions today, though. A brief encounter with an ex has unraveled my once tightly woven form and I am lost again in its tangled web.

Am I to suppose that an “on-again/off-again” relationship of his—which he claimed to be off again for good, is necessarily off? That, sadly, would be a big NO. I mean, look at us…it’s been 7 months and a drunken moment of weakness sucked us into our old routine for a weekend. I can’t sit here and think that there’s any chance of any sort of, albeit, misguided reconciliation with someone else in the picture, even if she is thousands of miles away.

So I sit here, anesthetized by mediocrity and snow and silence and wish I was back in his arms. Blaghh! I disgust myself right now.

~ by Timbre on March 6, 2008.