Jealousy

I have been feeling a bit out of sorts lately and I wonder if my discomfiture in this skin is causing some truth retention.  I have been feeling thin skinned lately, a bit passive aggressive and angered about my current situation.

 
I have become scarcely envious of those who I once admired and supported.  Envy is the ugliest emotion one can possess, it is filthy and nasty and turns people in to hideous creatures.  I know that envy is my own fear turned right back at me, I understand it’s my feeling small and insignificant, it’s my comparison to everything else seemingly bigger and better, envy stems from insecurities that were already there and becomes a festering ball of bad behavior and self-deprecation displaced.  I just never thought I would be so ripe with it, yes I mean ripe—I do feel like a ripe and thin skinned fruit— if bruised I could burst and spill my insides all over the floor.  I hate jealousy, I used to know how to be proactive with it, how to turn it around, shut it up and turn it into something useful.

 

Instead of seething-stop

Congratulate and honor the object of your jealousy

And begin to prepare a list on how to achieve what you want

5 minutes of deep breathing and clear your mind

Prepare to work harder than you ever have before on achieving what it is YOU want.

~ by Timbre on March 24, 2008.